cotton wrote:Its usually people looking for attention but sometimes we get fans that tend to have love/hate feelings for him. They love him but at the same time hate him cause he doesn't love them back. At least not in the way they want him too. This is what some have told me anyway. Then they would come on here and say some really bad things about him and we would have to delete it all lol
There are a lot of people on twitter that send him hate messages and I wish they would stop.
You know, maybe is just me, but those are the kinda of "fans" who ruin the reputation of good ones like us. Seriously... I wanna run away from the things people would considerer being a fan of, is because all the notions that people have of being a fan are all wrong.
I love Jim. I really do. But I also know I don't know him well like a friend or someone in his personal life would.
I love his work but I also love who he is (the part that we know about and let's face it no one knows more about him than us good fans. That Emma video is a very good example of that).
Being a fan is a complicated notion, at least is what I think.
Why ask him to follow me on twitter, when I know he only follows one person (his daughter and truly the number one fan). Who am I? Just one fan in millions, I'm no better than anyone else and we all love him equally. It wouldn't be fair and I guess that's why he doesn't follow back people. And even if he did follow any fans, the fair thing to do would be to follow the ones who have been his fans for longer, which means I would have a lot of people in front of the line before it gets to me. Including all f you in JCO. ^^
Why asking 4 a reply when we know that even if he has the time, it's extremely hard to reply to all his fans! Hundreds of people mention his name on twitter every day. Can you imagine that timeline? Good God! He would be answering all his life and probably never finish...
Come on... we are the ones who let ourselves fall into illusions. I can dream, in fact I dream a lot but at the end of the day we know the truth and still we love him inconditionaly.
I believe in many kinds of love. Between fans an artist there's love, just one kind in many.
I wouldn't be his fan (not to my standards anyway) if I hate him just because he doesn't give me atention? It's not how it works. I personally don't feel is like that at all. I don't need it and he's not the person to get it from.
Lately I've been writting a journal that actually talks more about it.
I'm organize (or I try to be ) and when something in my life changes I feel the need to write down.
When I became his fan I felt that need so I've been writting a journal just to put into paper my thoughts and emotions, notions and theorys (some facts too = >) about me as a fan and as a Jim Carrey fan. It's a way to know myself as a fan. To learn as well. You have to learn who you are as (in my case) a woman, daughter, lover, etc.
Sounds a bit strange I'm sure but it's my way to, you know, let it out without bothering anyone. It's only for my eyes to see. Although... if anyone read it wouldn't harm anyone.
Sorry, long post. ^^ I don't know if you agree with me but...